It’s an ongoing journey but I’ve found and created some awesome tools along the way that I now have at the ready to implement whenever my mind wanders too far backwards or forward. I’ve done a lot of self-reflection and work to break this down for myself as I navigated my way to feeling good and content. They consumed me in the present so I couldn’t be present. I couldn’t truly enjoy the little things or the big things, because I didn’t feel good about myself and my life solely based on my feelings about my past and my fears about my future. I either became paralyzed in one spot or I burnt out on a hamster wheel going nowhere fast. When the past/future bullshit gets the better of your brain, it stops you from living. I often let those to things shape my identity, how I feel about myself and how I exist in the world. I’ve wrestled with baggage from my past and unknowns about my future for as long as I can remember. I’ve spent months navigating this in my own life and I’m finally, for the first time, starting to feel good right where I am: here and now. The thing that often makes us feel not so hot at any given moment in the present is feelings about our past and fears about our future. The ones where nothing specifically happens to warrant those unpleasant feelings, but they’re there and they suck and it’s normal. I’m simply talking about the rest of the days in the year. Those are real life things we need to move through and address case by case and I’m certainly not equipped to address those days here and now. Now, I’m not talking about a day where some catastrophic or devastating event happens in your life. Those of us who experience feelings of self-doubt, anxiety or stress on any given day for no real good reason. I hope you feel absolutely fucking wonderful and if you do, this post isn’t necessarily for you. I’m curious - how are you feeling about the one you’re in right now? It’s cyclical and has however many chapters we choose to write. You can change the trajectory of your life at any time in your life and here’s the kicker… then, you can change it again, whenever the fuck you want! That’s the beauty of our time here on Earth. It just means I’m not down with shaming the life I led in the past and the pressure of instantaneous expectations for my future. I may not be a believer in New Year’s resolutions but that doesn’t mean I don’t have goals or intentions…
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